I am grateful that this week's grateful was about smiles. I needed to be looking for them.
I'm not one to sweat the small stuff, but the big things drench me from time to time. Yes, I'm still in the river, I'm afraid. Drowning a bit. Just a little.
Sometimes a little knot of anxiety ties itself to my chest and I can't undo it without using my teeth. Change and not knowing the ending are usually the causes of anxiety for me. I need to read the last page first and it distresses me when I can't. Not knowing how things end makes me itchy.
See, writing that just made me smile: I just outed myself as a dreaded last-page-first reader.
Do you read the last page?
What's making you smile today?
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25 comments (thank you!):
Apparently there's a word for people who read the last page first... I heard it years ago and have never managed to find it again. Maybe the person made it up. Regardless, I thought it lovely there was a single word. English is rarely so elegant.
I do it too. Sometimes I feel bad then I think I should just celebrate these little quirks and idiosyncrasies.
Ah, Bron.
We are one & the same.
I don't think I'd have ever have needed an epidural, if I just could have read the last page that told me when the pain would end ;)
Alas, the book wasn't available.
And I begged, BEGGED for the epidural :)
Just keep swimming beautiful!
And remember, it's ok for the positive people to not ALWAYS be positive! xx
I put my hand up to being a last page reader too. And I even have to read an imdb synopsis if I am watching a movie so I can make sure it works out ok. I understand your anxiety about change and things out of your control. Its hard not knowing isn't it. I hate riding that wave. Glad you found some smiles xx
No, I never read the last page first.. only sometimes. Hope the river carries you ashore soon.
Making me smile is my nearly four year old play on words, blending underarms with armpits - they're underpits. This is probably not even slightly amusing to others, but hey, that's my smile for the day.
I always read the last page first, I also peek under the wrapping of Christmas presents. I need to know!
Often read the last page, very often... but in books where things can't change, whereas in life... ah, in life, everything changes all the time.
Hope that you can untie that knot and blow away some of that anxiety.
xx
Never, ever read the last page first
Have been known to peel back the sticky tape though!
Ah Bron! I used to always read the last page first but it's a bit too fiddly to do with my kindle so haven't done it for a while.
Sounds like you being a bit overwhelmed with things at the moment - sending supportive thoughts your way!
I've never read the last page first, but I've read it once in the middle of a book and spoiled the whole book for myself, because that page was important.
Sometimes I'd love to be able to know what's coming my way, but at the same time, knowing what's coming is just as scary as not knowing...
Sending hugs your way!
xx
Bron, sometimes I even fast forward to the end of a movie! Patience is not one of my virtues.
Keep swimming lovely x
Been known to take a peek at the last page of the book, but these days just go with the flow of that river BUT ask to use your handy floaties....those around you that you trust to keep you buoyed. Big hugs xx
I'm a last page reader in the anxiety sense (but not in the book sense I Force myself to wait).
But I hate it the most when I get ALMOST every day ' don't worry '...I always think who stupid that is to say to me...it must be difficult for the non worriers to understand us worriers.
I got pretty drenched this week too - am smiling because it's the weekend and I catch up some sleep. X
I always read the last page first (and maybe a review or two) And movies? A review... with a synopsis... with spoilers. I need to know before I commit.
I hope things get better for you. I hate the times when the breakers just seem to be coming in too quickly, too close together and there's just no time to catch air before the next one. I hope you reach the shore soon.
I hope the knot loosens really soon, keep enjoying those sweet simple things..
ps. I can never bring myself to read the last page first, I'm a suspense thrill seeker..though not so much in life..x
I never read the last page first ... but sometimes I read if half way through to see if the story is actually going somewhere. So I guess I qualify? When I live my own adventure I always see the ending in my mind as clear as day.
I don't like reading that you are drowning Maxabella. I hope your snorkel is working and that you reach some easy breathing air soon ...
Always!!.. can't help but sneak a peak and half the time it doesn't make sense so was a waste of time knowing and by the time it does make sense you are 90% there so needn't have read it at all.
Its the way you are and its all good.. if knowing the ending gives you the confidence to start, bring it on.
Thing is as Cherie said sometimes you think it is all going to be worse than it is and you won't survive so you take the epidural.. I did first time and second time round never touched it.. I knew and I had courage. You go find your courage lady... I KNOW you have TONNES x
I am so tempted to read the last page sometimes but I control myself as best as possible to avoid ruining the ending for myself. It's not always easy. I have the same temptation with TV shows or movies I've not yet seen. I am tempted to run ahead and read the spoilers then I have to stop myself and try not to ruin my journey on the way. :-) Hope you find the weights lifted and yourself smiling more easily real soon.
I have an officemate who asks me first how a book I've read ends before reading the book. She also loves asking people about movie endings before watching the movie itself ;-)
Beautiful girl, I can tell you what the last page of your book says:
She was loved.
She was seen.
She worked, so very hard.
She fought to have space for her self.
She let herself off the hook.
She saw the rays of light, piercing those deep waters.
She kept going.
She knew she would be OK.
I totally understand! I feel sick where you feel itchy. I do much better when I can see the path ahead though I don't have to know where it ends per se I just gotta know it's heading somewhere I want it to. Hugs lovely. X
I am with you, I love to read the last page -though I always wait until a few chapters in.
Hope you stay afloat this week (hugs)
Well, come on ... lol do not speak Spanish very well ... thank God, I loved The Project translator ... hehehe photo and I will always try to share my photos, ok?
xoxo
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Awww anxiety SUCKS.
But I'm sorry; there's no WAY I'm a last page reader, tut tut (I'm with you on needing to know the outcome of everything else though)... I solve my book anxiety by just reading and reading til I'm finished and I know how it turns out... the long way round. The anxiety's the same tho!
PS So glad you're posting the linky here too; I couldn't find it last week on Kidspot (I'm a bit slow sometimes)
xx
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